Post by Deleted on Aug 21, 2012 16:08:06 GMT -5
Memories so many memories in his head, so many of them played back form when he was a child, somewhere from the recent years which had amused him. But the thing that made him smile was that they were all from the single instance. They had all be in betrayal. He had always been betrayed, even by his own mother. Not only was she the one that had brought him up and taught him that he shouldn’t be the one to regret things. The one thing he did however and what he regretted was that he actually let himself believe her and get close only to be hurt. And then again with the same mother feeling as the little girl and her mother, then it hit him he felt the sorrow the pain. He had killed her brother, the mother, and had taken her own life. But they had tried to kill him…
Sitting down a little bit unsure of what he was going to do. He couldn’t think straight at the moment, and he didn’t know why. But there were the lingering faces of the girls resting in his head. The way she was crying the way the mother had tried to save the daughter, but died in the process, and then the fact that he hadn’t been bothered by when they died, instead he had just smiled… And that made him sick about himself, was he truly becoming a killer like the rest of the warriors? Giving him the propaganda that he wasn’t affected by the deaths of others. And torturing others like the others do? To become like the bullies that he had despised back on his planet. And yet at the same time he couldn’t help but think he had possibly gotten stronger than them while being on this planet.
But at the same time he was questioning if he wanted to feel this power. That did he really want to have a power that the others had over him, would he become like them, and try to take over the planets, and kill innocent children and woman without a warning. Without remorse, or perhaps he was just a little bit different, because he couldn’t forget the faces of the girl and her mother. And yet at the same time he couldn’t even remember what exactly was going on at the time. All he knew was something taken over him and he had done what he wanted with the two of them. And yet he didn’t care that he took the most precious thing from the girl and her mother in front of their eyes at first. It was her brother, and the son of the woman. And thus causing them pain.
But at the same time he wanted them to feel what he had felt. Wanted them to see how it was to be betrayed by someone that you had grown use to, looking around for someone to see the pain you felt, to see if you can’t find help to help the one you love. Or someone to hold you while you sit there in despair and suffering without a single person to comfort you through that, that was the way Zilo was raised with no one to be fully around him. No one to fully take care of him, and yet there was the sense of wanting someone still. Someone to hold him and comfort him into making the right choices, to tell him that he can do it, the feeling of love was what he was missing, suddenly Zilo thought for a minute and began laughing to himself.
Why did he want that feeling, was he just upset after killing the mother and daughter together? No no he didn’t need that anymore, but something in him made him think about the two of them holding each other and smiling to one another. Their memories they would share for the rest of their lives, that was cut short for trying to poison a man that seemed to overcome the poison, and watched their family ripped away from them with nothing left to hold on too, and then it hit him, you wouldn’t believe it but he felt remorse, it hit him all the sudden, she deserved the same thing that he did. She needed the love of her parent, and she had it. But he had taken it from her which was what he wanted. He took it from her, and kept her from having what he wanted.
Sighing slightly and looking up at the skies, and thinking for a moment, if anyone saw Zilo at the moment, he looked as if he was in deep thought, and had a troubled looked on his face. But at the same time he seemed to be enlightened, and it seemed like he was at peace with himself. Looking back around at his surrounding, the trees where different then what it looked like on Vegeta, vegetas trees’ were blue these ones had a white tinge to them. But there was something different about them that confused him, why weren’t they blue? But instead they where a bright white color, and seemed to have a pink tinge to the tip of them, and that made him think about the way the lights reflected off of his beds, they had that warm glow to them, that made him smile and think of his warm bed back at home.
Walking over to the trees he touched the trunk of it, and blinked a little bit he was impressed by the tree, it was letting off a warm feeling of heat to his hand. Smiling slightly Zilo started towards the tree and sat his back against it. Sure he had his armor on but he could still feel it through the armor. It seemed to warm him softly, and for some reason he wanted to go to sleep. Just to rest without worry, and yet there was something in his mind that he couldn’t get out of his head. He was thinking about the girl, and how he was the one that took everything from her, took her brother, her mother. Those where the thoughts he was slowly going to sleep too, if he could redo his actions that he had done, but something didn’t seem right, why was the tree letting off heat and look like his bed. And why did they go down so easy in the house?
Sitting down a little bit unsure of what he was going to do. He couldn’t think straight at the moment, and he didn’t know why. But there were the lingering faces of the girls resting in his head. The way she was crying the way the mother had tried to save the daughter, but died in the process, and then the fact that he hadn’t been bothered by when they died, instead he had just smiled… And that made him sick about himself, was he truly becoming a killer like the rest of the warriors? Giving him the propaganda that he wasn’t affected by the deaths of others. And torturing others like the others do? To become like the bullies that he had despised back on his planet. And yet at the same time he couldn’t help but think he had possibly gotten stronger than them while being on this planet.
But at the same time he was questioning if he wanted to feel this power. That did he really want to have a power that the others had over him, would he become like them, and try to take over the planets, and kill innocent children and woman without a warning. Without remorse, or perhaps he was just a little bit different, because he couldn’t forget the faces of the girl and her mother. And yet at the same time he couldn’t even remember what exactly was going on at the time. All he knew was something taken over him and he had done what he wanted with the two of them. And yet he didn’t care that he took the most precious thing from the girl and her mother in front of their eyes at first. It was her brother, and the son of the woman. And thus causing them pain.
But at the same time he wanted them to feel what he had felt. Wanted them to see how it was to be betrayed by someone that you had grown use to, looking around for someone to see the pain you felt, to see if you can’t find help to help the one you love. Or someone to hold you while you sit there in despair and suffering without a single person to comfort you through that, that was the way Zilo was raised with no one to be fully around him. No one to fully take care of him, and yet there was the sense of wanting someone still. Someone to hold him and comfort him into making the right choices, to tell him that he can do it, the feeling of love was what he was missing, suddenly Zilo thought for a minute and began laughing to himself.
Why did he want that feeling, was he just upset after killing the mother and daughter together? No no he didn’t need that anymore, but something in him made him think about the two of them holding each other and smiling to one another. Their memories they would share for the rest of their lives, that was cut short for trying to poison a man that seemed to overcome the poison, and watched their family ripped away from them with nothing left to hold on too, and then it hit him, you wouldn’t believe it but he felt remorse, it hit him all the sudden, she deserved the same thing that he did. She needed the love of her parent, and she had it. But he had taken it from her which was what he wanted. He took it from her, and kept her from having what he wanted.
Sighing slightly and looking up at the skies, and thinking for a moment, if anyone saw Zilo at the moment, he looked as if he was in deep thought, and had a troubled looked on his face. But at the same time he seemed to be enlightened, and it seemed like he was at peace with himself. Looking back around at his surrounding, the trees where different then what it looked like on Vegeta, vegetas trees’ were blue these ones had a white tinge to them. But there was something different about them that confused him, why weren’t they blue? But instead they where a bright white color, and seemed to have a pink tinge to the tip of them, and that made him think about the way the lights reflected off of his beds, they had that warm glow to them, that made him smile and think of his warm bed back at home.
Walking over to the trees he touched the trunk of it, and blinked a little bit he was impressed by the tree, it was letting off a warm feeling of heat to his hand. Smiling slightly Zilo started towards the tree and sat his back against it. Sure he had his armor on but he could still feel it through the armor. It seemed to warm him softly, and for some reason he wanted to go to sleep. Just to rest without worry, and yet there was something in his mind that he couldn’t get out of his head. He was thinking about the girl, and how he was the one that took everything from her, took her brother, her mother. Those where the thoughts he was slowly going to sleep too, if he could redo his actions that he had done, but something didn’t seem right, why was the tree letting off heat and look like his bed. And why did they go down so easy in the house?